Also my cat was very sick and spent five days in cat hospital. She pulled through and although she's a bit haggard she's here with me now having a huge purr. If she had have died I would have really lost it yesterday when movie world sacked me. But she's here and I'm so relieved.
Julia Orwell
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Could it be that Jehovah is punishing me for leaving his religion?
by Julia Orwell ini know it's a completely absurd thing to say, but something happened to me today that triggered the old cult reaction.
my mind instantly lapsed back into that of a jw and for a split second i thought that because i wasn't doing jehovah things that jehovah's blessing had been removed from me and this is why my life seems to be running into so many dead-ends.
as a jw i attributed anything good happening to me to being the result of my being a good jw and dutifully doing everything the borg teaches.
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Could it be that Jehovah is punishing me for leaving his religion?
by Julia Orwell ini know it's a completely absurd thing to say, but something happened to me today that triggered the old cult reaction.
my mind instantly lapsed back into that of a jw and for a split second i thought that because i wasn't doing jehovah things that jehovah's blessing had been removed from me and this is why my life seems to be running into so many dead-ends.
as a jw i attributed anything good happening to me to being the result of my being a good jw and dutifully doing everything the borg teaches.
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Hey all, thanks for understanding and supporting. I'm much better today as I did some work in a local school and then went to a job interview. I know the Jehovah thing is a load of hooey but losing my job triggered that old primal fear of the unknown and unpredictable that cults play on
So once again I fall back on my teaching degree, the degree I was naughty to get as a jw!
Ok, the reason they instantly terminated me from Movie World: I picked up some glasses that had fallen on the track of the slowest moving ride after I had moved the cars along. That's it. I think they just wanted to get rid of me. I've since heard that they fire people all the time for stupid stuff. Well screw them. It was like being in a police state anyway. Everything you did was jealously scrutinized and reported. It was actually starting to get to me. I might wait til the big year 12 tests are over end of September and then seriously start working on a long term career.
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Could it be that Jehovah is punishing me for leaving his religion?
by Julia Orwell ini know it's a completely absurd thing to say, but something happened to me today that triggered the old cult reaction.
my mind instantly lapsed back into that of a jw and for a split second i thought that because i wasn't doing jehovah things that jehovah's blessing had been removed from me and this is why my life seems to be running into so many dead-ends.
as a jw i attributed anything good happening to me to being the result of my being a good jw and dutifully doing everything the borg teaches.
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Julia Orwell
Yep it will. But I have enough work lined up next month to pay the bills plus an interview tomorrow. I haven't been idle. When I left JWs I realised that all the good things I got were because I went out and got them. Or got them because I have a great family. My dad is taking me out to drink and gamble to forget my probs- all paid for by him of course. So I'm feeling a bit less desolate about my situation.
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JWs at the Edinburgh Festival
by passwordprotected inmy girlfriend and i took the train through to edinburgh to soak in the atmosphere and catch a few free comedy shows at the fringe festival.. almost immediately i spotted them; jw.org witnesses.. how did i know it was them?.
well, the middle-aged, tall man wearing the suit, shirt and tie was a big clue.
that and the fact that he was holding the hand of a similarly tall, middle-aged woman, dressed in the jw uniform of long skirt, blouse and light summer jacket.
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Julia Orwell
Think about when you were a JW. Could you ever get excited about handing out tracts? I know I never could.
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Could it be that Jehovah is punishing me for leaving his religion?
by Julia Orwell ini know it's a completely absurd thing to say, but something happened to me today that triggered the old cult reaction.
my mind instantly lapsed back into that of a jw and for a split second i thought that because i wasn't doing jehovah things that jehovah's blessing had been removed from me and this is why my life seems to be running into so many dead-ends.
as a jw i attributed anything good happening to me to being the result of my being a good jw and dutifully doing everything the borg teaches.
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Julia Orwell
I h ave a degree and two trade certificates. It's just not enough anymore so it's probably time I studied something else. Problem is, I have a mortgage to pay!
But thanks for your kind words, peeps, especially about NEVER being in your prayers! That makes me feel good for some reason. I've got an interview lined up already so things won't be that bad.
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JEHOVAH WITNESS PEDOPHILE COVER-UP ON CNN SUNDAY NIGHT! FREDRICK MCLEAN!
by BucketShopBill inhi everyone, this has been what i have waited for, fredrick mclean is up next on cnn's "most wanted" and "hunted show", so far two of their topics are dead!.
last sunday's "the hunt" blew his head off monday morning!
let's hope cnn get's jehovah witness fredrick mclean!
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Julia Orwell
Hang on, isn't that guy a fugitive on the FBI wanted list? How can he be a JW in good standing?
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Could it be that Jehovah is punishing me for leaving his religion?
by Julia Orwell ini know it's a completely absurd thing to say, but something happened to me today that triggered the old cult reaction.
my mind instantly lapsed back into that of a jw and for a split second i thought that because i wasn't doing jehovah things that jehovah's blessing had been removed from me and this is why my life seems to be running into so many dead-ends.
as a jw i attributed anything good happening to me to being the result of my being a good jw and dutifully doing everything the borg teaches.
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I know it's a completely absurd thing to say, but something happened to me today that triggered the old cult reaction. My mind instantly lapsed back into that of a JW and for a split second I thought that because I wasn't doing Jehovah things that Jehovah's blessing had been removed from me and this is why my life seems to be running into so many dead-ends. As a JW I attributed anything good happening to me to being the result of my being a good JW and dutifully doing everything the borg teaches. Now, since I left the Borg I haven't been able to keep a stable job. Not since I lost my government job at the end of 2012 and began my fade.
If I wanted something like a job or whatever, I'd make sure I kept up my witnessing and went to the meeting no matter what, because weren't we told that if we 'put the kingdom first then all these other things would be added'? (Matthew 6:33) So to make sure I had a job and food and housing etc I was a devout JW.
Well, today I lost that cool job I got back in May and wrote about it. What a complete kick in the teeth that was as I was escorted out of the theme park by the boss, all the while she's trying to make small talk with me to try make me feel better about the fact she just called me into her office and sacked me. So while trying to keep ahead of her to ignore her and walk out with my dignity, I lapsed back into the old cult thinking that Jehovah is punishing me for leaving, and this is why I haven't kept a stable job since I left 'the truth'.
Isn't it just absurd? I mean, I know it's not Jehovah or anyone else, more to do with me being a big screw-up. I couldn't stick to teaching because it does my head in, and can't work on a theme park ride because I made a mistake. Also our economy is crap and there are very few other jobs around. But the back of my mind throws up this old cult rubbish that if I go back to 'Jehovah' then he will bless me with a good job. Totally irrational.
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Questions From Readers (w67, 6/15, p383) :How old was Abel when he died?
by raymond frantz inthe watchtgower has decided to drop most of it's old publications up to 1990 and it looks like the library cd will be a thing of the past soon .i have decided to save some of the old content especially the questions from readers like wordpress posts and add photos ,let me know what you think.here is one from the 1967 watchtower.
how old was abel when he died ?.
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Julia Orwell
Yeah, like you can just replace one kid with another. Whoever wrote this didn't have kids or know anyone who had kids. Evidently.
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It's August 3 here and nothing has happened...I guess even the jws can't get excited about another ho-hum tract campaign.
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Evolution is just a theory
by venting inthis ticks me off!
last sundays watchtower talked about how organised the heavens are.
how it works so acuratley.
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Julia Orwell
Yep, we were like them. Some of them will become like them. There is hope.